Seasons

How is it that so much time passes between posts? The truth is that I’ve written several posts and decided it was wiser not to post them. Some have been little soap box speeches about things I feel strongly about and others have been more personal comments about things I’ve been struggling with.

Lately I have been working through a book called Captivating with a group of wonderful women. Some of the journaling is tough, painful and yet very needful. Some is joyful, refreshing and reminds me of how blessed I am. This is the third time I’ve journeyed through this book and each time I’ve discovered more about who I am, who I am not, and most importantly, who God is.

If life is like seasons I think each season can be broken down into months. I haven’t enjoyed this past season much, too more unsettledness, uncertainty and upheaval. Some thrive in these circumstances, stepping up to the plate and battling to make the best of things. Not me, I prefer routine and order and planning things out and watching those plans unfold. I know that a rut, a routine, feel safer to me and I know why. But that’s for another time. Months….?? I think this past while has been a November. November ushers in months of cold, dark, dreary days. I am ready to move out of that space!! I think April and May are my favorite months. But March brings with it whispers of warmth, new growth and sunshine. Our girls were born in May and April, what wonderful blessings they are! Thank you Lord that March is just around the corner, prepare my heart for what this season will unfold. One of the joys we look forward to in March is meeting our newest grandchild face to face. What a joy our little people are!! They have a way of pushing aside our veneer and exposing our hearts. With each one of our grandpeople I very clearly remember a time of sitting quietly, holding this little person in my arms and connecting heart to heart. Maybe I spoke words to them but what I said wasn’t important. It was the wonder of holding this new little being, created with reason and purpose, that drew voluntarily from my heart the delight of committing to this little one my love and all that love encompasses.

Yes….. whispers of warm, new growth and prolonged sunshine.